breath of fresh air

{my hometown, Ottawa - image taken from here}

The last couple weeks have been hard.  I've not only had some disappointing news on the job front, but I've also been disappointed by people I thought were my friends.  This has heightened my sense of homesickness and loneliness to the point where I've made tearful phone calls to my mother.

And then a miracle happened.  I realized I have air mile points.  Lots and lots of air mile points! Enough to fly over to Canada for a visit!  So although there are no set dates yet - and nothing is official unless it's already been "paid" for - I'm planning to go back to Ottawa via Vancouver for two weeks early October.  And let me tell you, I couldn't be more excited.  As soon as the decision was made and discussed with my mother, I have felt as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  I'm going home.  I'm going to see my family, my best friends.  I'm going to be surrounded by the people I love and trust the most.  I am going to feel like I belong.  I am going to be able to re-group.

And I seriously, honestly couldn't be more excited.  I feel like I'm breathing fresh air for the first time in weeks.

{my adopted hometown, Vancouver - image taken from here}